What is a perfect girlfriend? They say there's no such thing as perfection, and that she doesn't exist.
She dresses up all cute and pretty every time you take her out on a date. This is her way of keeping you interested as your eyes are locked solely on her. You stare at other girls instead, and she gets hurt and upset that all her time and effort were put to waste. You call her insecure.
She holds on to you like she's never letting you go. This is her way of telling other girls that she's lucky that she has you, and no, you're not available. You call her clingy.
She calls you the sweetest nicknames, or ones that only you two will understand. This is her way of saying how special you are, and that there's nobody else in this world like you. You call other girls "babe" just as how you would call her, and she gets disappointed. You call her shallow andjealous.
She checks up on you, making sure you made it home safely or that you're not out getting yourself into any kind of trouble. This is her way of showing how often she thinks about you and that she worries constantly because that's how much she cares. You say she's nagging.
She cries when you do or say something wrong. This is her way of saying "That hurt only because YOU said it and I love YOU." You call her overly sensitive and emotional.
She loves you more than you love her. This is her way of dealing with the fact that your relationship wasn't like how it used to be, but she is willing to make room for more love and some changes. You push her away. You call her dramatic and annoying.
So go ahead. Leave the insecure, clingy, jealous, nagging, overly sensitive, annoying girl.
She will soon be much happier in the arms of someone who actually deserves her: the perfect boyfriend.
it's our 16th month today. I almost forgot. i dunno, i think we're both too busy to notice. i haven't talked to him for days. He has been so busy with his school stuff, and basketball practice, while i was busy with cramming my projects and school stuff.
I think that it's also my fault, i told him that we shouldn't see each other for a while because of this "something". At first, he wasn't sure if it'll work out like that, but then i told him that "we need to do this, we have to.."
..and so it happened. we didn't see each other for a while, and for me it was like HELL. srsly. alam mo yung feeling na hindi ka masaya? nalulungkot ka pag uuwi ka tapos maaalala mo dapat magkikita kayo today? darn! it really feels weird. :( i just miss him terribly.
hun, if ever you're reading this, I just want you to know that im so sorry if we have to go through this. I wasn't expecting this to happen. I know we'll see each other SOON. hopefuly. i miss you. seriously. i love you dear. happy 16th.
okay, masyado nakong seryoso. btw, excited nako lumabas kasama bestfriends ko nextnext week. wohooooooooo. red horse :)
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BAKIT BA GANITO?
bakit ba ganito nararamdaman ko? naiinis ako.naaasiwa ako. kinikilig ako. natutuwa ako. naiiyak ako. natutuwa ako pag kasama kita. kinikilig ako pag kausap kita. pero bakit ganon? naiinis ako pag kasama mo SIYA hindi ako selfish hindi ako madamot at mas lalong hindi ako nagseselos. nakakaiingit lang dahil mas malapit ka sa kanya , eh kung iisipin mas nauna tayong nagkakilala. bakit ngayon parang balewala nalang ako? nagkakaganito ako dahil sayo.
kilala mo lang ako pag may kailangan ka nilalapitan mo lang ako pag gusto mo ng kausap naglalambing pa pag inaasar tayo ...at nagpapa-uto naman ako para sakyan ang trip mo ang nakaka-asar pa dun, hindi ko kayang magalit sayo.
pagkatapos kitang pahiramin ng jacket ko.. makinig sa mga kwento mo.. sumakay sa trip mo tapos babalewalain mo lang ako.
minsan hindi ko maintindihan ang gusto mong sabihin hindi ko ma-gets ang mga ikinikilos mo naguguluhan ako.
manhid ka. alam mo yun? alam mong gusto kita natatakot lang ako aminin kasi ayaw kong i-pusta ang pagkakaibigan natin ayaw kong kamunghian mo ako ayaw kong iwasan mo ako hahayaan ko nalang mabaon ang nararamdaman ko. pipikit nalang ako para di ko makita. magbibingi-bingihan nalang ako para di ko marinig at magtatanga-tangahan nalang ako para di mo pansin.
ang masaklap dito, hindi ko kayang magalit sayo hindi ko kayang magselos dahil wala akong karapatan SINO LANG BA AKO SAYO? hindi mo naman ako girlfriend. classmate mo lang ako, sa madaling salita.. KAIBIGAN mo lang ako at hanggang dun nalang yun. dinadaan ko nalang ang lahat sa biro, pero nasasaktan ako. seryoso
bakit kasi IKAW pa? nasasaktan ako sa ginagawa mo. alam kong wala akong aasahan dahil may iba ka na.. hindi rin ako humuhingi ng kapalit gusto ko lang sabihin na gusto kita ganon ka-simple. ...at magkikita nanaman tayo bukas sasaktan ko nanaman ang sarili ko pero ayos lang, IKAW naman yan eh.
alam mo yun? i feel that i don't have the right to be sad kasi i got everything that i wanted(emotionally). err. it's weird. i was so happy yesterday tapos ngayon sobrang nakakalungkot talaga.
i was really happy yesterday because Ernest surprised me by picking me up sa school. I told him not to kasi sayang sa pamasahe(since nag-increase na), but he insisted. at 12:40 pm, i asked him where he was because i was still inside the classroom. I told him to wait for me, then he said na he would stay sa MINISTOP. i asked him which MINISTOP coz my school is sourrounded by lots of MINISTOP. :)) when i was about to go out of my building, i saw his car parked opposite my building near MINISTOP. hahahaha. i was surprised. seriously.
i was supposed to introduce him to my friends since all of them were in IMNO (too bad, i missed our block inuman AGAIN.), sayang walang parking. so umuwi nalang kami :P . we were supposed to eat at PIZZA HUT kasi i was craving for CHEEZY POPS. hahaha. so he promised me na we'll have our lunch there ♥ . unfortunately, mama texted me and told me to go straight to Philam kasi she's watching Alon's school program. So instead of eating sa PIZZA HUT, we ended up watching Alon's dance =)) although im a bit disappointed kasi i wasn't able to eat CHEEZY POPS. boo.
After Alon's program, we went home, then played with Alon for a little bit.. then we played PSP =)) ayun, basta ganon :D when he left my house, he texted me if he could drop by again, he wants me to meet his pamangkins :P hahaha. weird. :))
after he left, i felt kinda sad and EMPTY. seriously. di ko alam yung reason kung bakit. hanggang ngayon. ang bigat ng feeling.
[wait. kakatawag lang niya, he told me na he can't find his phone. boo.]
grr. ewan ko talaga. nalulungkot akoooooo.
minsan sa buhay, kailangan mong malungkot para malaman mo na hindi lahat ng oras kaya mong idaan ang lahat sa tawa.
hindi kami nagkita ng 1 linggo. ewan ko. naiinis ako kasi hindi naman "reasonable" yung mga rason niya. ilang beses niyang sinabi na busy siya kasi mag-aaral siya pero HINDI NAMAN.
i called him kanina after his class then asked him kung nasan siya. he told me na he was at the mall with his classmates. MALAMANG may girls siyang kasama. what's worse is that he bought his car with him (isipin mo nalang kung sinong katabi niya).
HINDI AKO NAGSESELOS. NAIINIS LANG.
after nun, i was checking my friendster then i checked his. tinignan ko yung profile nung classmate niya then checked HER photos. i saw a picture of them at my boyfs house.
i was like.. HOLYYY EFFF. NAGPUNTA NGA PALA SILA DUN.
-even if i get to see him once a week, it still feels different. I MISS HIM SOOO MUCH.
i miss my girls
-after 35 years. hahaha. I'll be seeing them soon (Kaye's debut). I miss them to bits and pieces. i miss their laugh, jokes, hirit and chichis :D i can't wait to see them :P
i miss Alon.
-ALON IS LOVE. he's such a talented boy. he knows how to sing BAHAY KUBO. hahaha. how i wish i could see him every now and then :P
usapang haircut. since it's mothers day, my mom treated me to the salon. :) my mom, my sister and i had a haircut. hahaha (i'll post the before and after soon). now i have bangs, as in she bangs she bangs. hahaha. sabi nga nila, "change is good". haay, im starting to get along with this "change" thing hahaha. nanibago ako right after akong gupitan, napasabi nalang ako ng "ayos toh, mukha akong bakla." hahaha. WEIIIRRRD. :) makakasanayan ko rin ang baklang ichura. haha.
usapang strike. may nationwide strike bukas. mapapa "holy eff" nalang ako. it's my orientation day tomorrow, im excited to meet mimi and meet "new friends and soon to be blockmates". at first my mom permitted me to go to the orientation[FYI: nag check ako ng "no, i will not attend" dun sa orientation reply slip, hahaha pero gusto ko talagang pumunta] then after 5 hours, biglang may balita na may "nationwide strike", as in no transpooo. (kung pwede sanang mag kalesa mula las pinas hanggang taft eh. ahahaha). medyo nabadtrip ako that's my freakin' first orientation sa college tas biglang di ako papayagan? booooooo. my mom said na "hindi lahat makakapunta dahil maaapektuhan ng strike, at pwede raw ma-move yung orientation" EH PANO KUNG HINDI? pano kung magpunta sila tapos ako lang hindi?booo. i'll call CSB tomorrow morning. sana merooooon. oh pleeease.
usapang boyfriend. i miss him. ewan ko, feeling ko he doesn't feel the same way. the last time we went out was during our first anniv, last april 22 after nun, wala na. we hardly talk and nasasayang unli koo. holy eff. hahaha. weird super. hindi ako galit o ano, gusto ko lang maglabas ng sama ng loob. hahaha.
i made a new layout. :D actually, this serves as my temporary layout. hahaha. I got bored so made my first layout. boredom = creativeness. hahahaha. it's April 22 today, we're celebrating our first year together. yey! ü hahaha. at last! after a long wait. hahaha. oh yesss. finally. :D
another thing to be happy about: MAY FUTURE NAKO!! may COLLEGE nako. hahaha. Im going to Benilde and i'll be taking up Multimedia Arts. wohooo! im really excited, ewan ko i just feel na everything will change, people, friends, environment, teachers, blah blah. hahaha. nakaka-excite talaga.
ayun lang. ahahah ayun muna, later na uli ako magbblog weeee.
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